September 24, 2007

I’m not sure why I’m doing this. Is it because I’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy all day long? Is Grey’s Anatomy making me feel unhealthy? I think my left arm is hurting. Doesn’t that mean heart attack? Shit.

My name is Ben. I’m 21 years old. I can’t be having a heart attack. I hope I’m not. I weigh 297 pounds. I’m 6”0.

Your name is Amanda Lyn Ferri. I know that because I watch JakeandAmir videos, and every once in a while you show up. Ticklish style. Don’t worry. I have a girlfriend. A girlfriend that I love. That’s proably why I’m emailing you. I am going to lose 47 pounds. 250 sounds a lot better than 297 doesn’t it?

I honestly have no clue why I am emailing you. It makes no sense. It made sense in my head. I was watching Grey’s Anatomy and looking through vimeos. I thought; “what if I decided to lose weight, and I emailed someone to keep me accountable?” It’s embarassing to say “I’m on a diet” or “I’m trying to lose weight” So I wanted to email someone I didn’t know.

Have you ever helped someone lose weight? I wonder how it works. You don’t have to email me back. I totally understand if you don’t. I don’t know if I’d email a random person with such an odd request back. But. If you do, I’d appreciate it. It’ll help to have a dialogue. An accountability dialogue.

Thanks.

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